Am I ready for a woman in my life? A most profound question that I have asked myself over the past few months since the death of my companion for 20 years in March this year. As most of you know I have pretty serious medical issues that are under tests at this time. Because of them I had vowed never to ask a woman to come into my life because my condition may deteriorate to such an extent that she may be forced to look after me. The Spanish government does not have the money to supply carers or any sort of practical help. So if I do have a lady in my life she may become a slave to my problem.
A rather wise lady said to me to not say that as there is always someone in the wings just wanting and waiting to help. It took a long time for those words to sink in and I have now accepted the fact that she may be right after all.
Over the years I have come to the understanding that a close relationship develops into a compromise, a situation which usually ends up in discord as both individuals cannot fully be themselves. So if I did take a woman to heart in my life I would like us both to accept who we are and respect that, live with that and function totally as ourselves bonded with a developing love for each other as individuals and a couple.
Another question I have asked myself is what sort or type of woman would I be happy with? Would I be happy with a jigsaw piece that is the exact fit for my piece of the puzzle or the total opposite, a world war 3 activator, or something in between. I wish life was a simple matter of option one entering my world and enhancing it as I would enhance hers. It’s funny that I wrote the Open Love Letter post a while back as a prelude to this post. I feel now that there is a woman out there waiting and wanting to enter my life as a partner, lover, friend and companion.
Maybe you are reading this and know that it is you I am writing to. I have no idea who you are, what age you are, even what country you are living in. But if you are coming to me I will welcome you with open arms and an open heart. Fate, destiny, or our Paths of Life will bring us together. I know that. I accept that and I am really looking forward to our first meeting. Take care whoever you are dear Lady. Ralph xx